A wonderful testimonial from one of our students.
I am leaving for Denver today and am hoping to return on Monday. Before I leave there are a few things I would like to share about myself. Mostly, I don't want to talk about myself, I want to learn more, claim and stay with who I am. Really.
It is interesting, but a few weeks before coming to this class I found myself saying "I want to be the different I am." To be different, growing up, meant bad, wrong, something to be separated from, as soon as possible and without any questions asked. I am in my 80th year and doing what I call, the final lap. I sometimes honestly don't know whether I will make it or not, but I do know that I won't give up and I am ready.
Pride I hear you say that you are God and we are all God and when you say this it touches me in a way as never before. I don't know why. Perhaps I do not need to know why. And when you told Sherrie and me that the teacher we have been looking for, we have been looking for, for several lifetimes, I heard a quiet and very strong "yes."
I have had a few experiences that might be called phenomena and what I feel is not phenomena but is natural. Things that are not readily shared with others. The most recent happened last night.
I laid down with an aching right arm, that has been aching for several months. Before lying down, I did the exercises we were taught in class. Then, I "heard" "this pain can go away. Pride says it can so it can." The pain left - not completely, but noticeably and to a place where the arm can move in ways it couldn't, before. And, the bout of an unexpected attack of depression I have been experiencing these last couple of weeks also took its leave.
I went to a crystal store, yesterday, to look for a specific stone and was drawn directly to a small basket of smoky quartz. Then to one. Just one. I took it with me and when I arrived home read that Smoky Quartz is "grounding, centering; chakras: root, navel, solar plexus."
Then there is the sun.
"You who are the Source of all Power
Your rays illuminate the whole world
Illuminate, also, my heart
So I too can do your work."
A translation of the Giaytri, a Hindu mantra and one you may already know.
What I have been chanting for years came to life, Tuesday. The sun. A sun that is very real to me and that I carry with me, knowingly, and can relate to. I think the student has met the teacher(s). Wow.
In gratitude,
Mary
